It’s the number one feeling I have propped up in my head over the last couple of years as I approach 40, almost like a post-it note, flying around in my brain, floating around like stickies around my house. It’s the point of my one regular morning journal.
I came to the idea of gratitude journaling from a book called Slow Family Living, by Bernadette Noll.
The second feeling is fear. Fear of not finishing it all, not completing the dreams, nearing the last half of life. It doesn’t sound young! It sounds old. Children are getting older, the vision of them graduating doesn’t feel that far. Parents are aging quickly and change is seen. Tragic life stories are heard and we shake our heads in disbelief and sadness. These things can be consuming and affect you at times in your life. All this fear was affecting me last year. And then I got out if it by gratitude journaling. And the first feeling helps alleviate the 2nd feeling.
I realized that I’ve lived an amazing 40 years. Forty is A LOT! Sure, it doesn’t sound as many as 70 or 80. But to have achieved such happiness and health not only AT 40 but THROUGH 40, is so much to be grateful for. So many in the world don’t get to obtain that. I need to remind myself of this when I get greedy about longevity.
Today I wanted to gratitude journal here as if I would in my regular journal. You might not find it inspiring or moving at all. I don’t know what I’m about to write so I can’t promise you any profound statements at all. The journaling is helpful to me at least when done regularly. The benefits aren’t seen just from writing one list. I believe it to be a journey.
- 7 things you’re grateful for TODAY:
- the ability to use my hand and write today. my Le Pens.
- the quiet I have this morning for 15 minutes in this house.
- taking the time to cuddle with my girls last night and living and breathing in that moment. i make sure i remember it.
- grateful for my parents and how close they live and how loving they are and how alive and well they are
- my 40 amazing presents that Amee gave me for 40 days prior to my 40th birthday. I’m still floored by the intention.
- my health. my breath today. my movement. my active muscles. my appetite. my taste and sight. there is so much to be thankful for in my body. it is a sacred place i have taken advantage of.
- my cup of coffee this morning. it’s just so freakin’ good. and i love today’s mug. and my mug collection.
- Feelings: (feelings right at this moment)
I feel slightly anxious. Not sure why. I feel nauseous for some reason the last few days. I feel awake.
- Insights: (what did you learn yesterday)
Learned that we will always worry about our children no matter how old or young they are. The worry is unhealthy but inevitable. At least for me. And the big picture doesn’t have to include these worries. Life can be bad. Life is good.
- Intention: (your focus on today, not your to-do list)
My intention today is to enjoy the moment. Not be too harsh and hard on the kids. Show love. Pour outwardly.
- shoot naan pizza photo
- update blog schedule
- Egoscue with 15 minute meditation
- write write write
- finish lead magnet
- follow up KU class
- kids: birthday party plan, grade Kumon, hair oil, plan playdates for week
I thank Bernadette Noll for introducing the idea of this gratitude journal to me. It’s something I have been able to sustain because it’s simply so healthful, cathartic, and sets the tone for my day. I’d love to hear if any of you write a gratitude journal. Or if there’s something you can share that has helped you in your life that’s similar. Hit the reply button and tell me! Or leave a comment on the blog.